The Waiting Game

I have a lot of love in my heart.

I guess failed relationships are life lessons to make us stronger. I know. I have been heartbroken so many times. People just don't always want to try, and it's also hard for both parties to grow at the same pace. Some people have poor examples of healthy relationships and don't know how to treat someone. Some think that relationships are temporary and disposable. Sometimes paths split and there is nothing that can be done. It's really about courage...some have it, most do not. Are you brave enough to trust and love, or are you too afraid to be vulnerable? These are questions I always wonder about and can see clear answers in past relationships of those too afraid to move forward. I get burned a lot because I am brave and keep trying. Quitting is rarely an option for me. But many of my exes were too afraid to trust, or too damaged to try. Nothing I can do about that. 

One of the greatest lessons that keeps surfacing is that I cannot be responsible for someone else and what they do/want. It's terribly hard. I hate it when someone I love walks away. 

But like a moth to the flame...I keep trying. 

My next love wears a dark mask. He will reveal himself at some point. Don't know when...but to abandon hope now leaves me with bad feelings, so I'm sticking with the hope.

How dull life would be without love!